I am the first to put myself down. I’m such a “moreish” person. I am never content with my achievements no matter how big or small and constantly think I could be doing something more to improve my life. Being an incredibly impatient person is one of my worst traits, I want things and I want them now.
One thing that is majorly bugging me right now is how little i’m doing with my Photography skills. Yes, I get to take photos for my blog and yes I upload nice photos to Instagram regularly but it’s not what I’m looking for. I’m just sort of appeasing myself rather than pushing myself.
I need to stop choosing the easy option and taking photos of our overly photogenic dog (I will never get tired of taking photos of her, that little chocolate babe) and go out and work to capture and create the sort of photography that I know i’m capable of. The sooner I stop sitting about waiting for opportunities to come to me on a big silver plate, the better.
It’s not always easy to accept that you are your problem, but it is easy to accept that you are your resolution (Oh, the cheese) but it’s true. It’s easy to sit back and say “Well what’s the point in me doing that when so and so does it ten times better” which I am so so guilty of but maybe “so and so” does it better because they work bloody hard to get the results that you and I desire to have ourselves.
It’s so important to accept that you are not your failures. When I think about the fact it’s been around 6 years since I went to college to study photography and how little iv’e done with it since it gives me a sinking feeling in my stomach. Life isn’t easy and things will ALWAYS get in the way, but it’s never too late. Everyone should work at their own pace, but that pace has to be satisfying your needs. It has to get the results that you strive to achieve and motivate you to keep working harder and getting better at what you are passionate about.
I’ve been taking photos ever since I basically knew how to pick up a camera, I can’t remember a time in my life that I wasn’t obsessed with capturing every. single. thing. yet I’ve never “had the time” (Bullshit Amy) or the confidence to build up and publish a portfolio. So it’s time to change that.
Basically, what i’m trying to say here is instead of envying the people who are absolutely bossing it in your field of work/interest…. Join them!