Lately I’ve been feeling like there’s been something missing from my life, I can’t 100% figure out what it is. I think it’s lack of creative output or even just a general hobby. I can’t remember ever being this bored or dissatisfied with myself, I mean don’t get me wrong I have a great life. I live in a beautiful house, I have a stable income of money and I have an amazing family, best friend and boyfriend who love me, so why am I complaining? Right now, I feel like my days are merging into one. I wish my life away and want to fast forward to every Friday night for that relieving feeling of not having to set my alarm to get up at 6.30am the next morning, right now, this is what pleases me most in life. That and the extra few hours sleep I get the following Saturday morning, which I personally think is pretty sad. Without sounding overly dramatic (which is exceptionally difficult for me) I feel depersonalised and that I’ve lost the majority of the characteristics that I love most about myself.
Iv’e been thinking about ways I can change this, to do things for me again…just purely because I enjoy doing them. I thought about all the things I’m passionate about, that make me feel like me and how I can incorporate them into my daily life. I enjoy anything that gets the creative portion of my brain interested and motivated. In my early to mid teens I loved to write, I would just sit on my laptop and write fiction stories and It kept me amused for hours on end. I think you learn a lot about yourself when you write down the thoughts that go through your head, I believe it’s one of the best ways to get to know yourself or understand certain thought processes that enter your mind. It’s something I haven’t done for years, and maybe one of the reasons I feel depersonalised today. Another way I find it easiest to express myself is through taking photos. Ever since I can remember, I’ve taken photos of EVERYTHING. Yep, I’m one of those painstakingly annoying people who can’t eat a slice of toast without having to snap it at it’s best angle incorporating the best lighting I can find. I’ve ultimately came to the decision that I want to combine my two loves of writing and photography together and start this blog. I plan to post everything from dear diary posts to makeup tutorials and anything that I’m interested in that falls in between. If you found this post interesting or at all relatable, I hope you’ll follow along!